I can’t begin to remember a specific point as to when I “officially” became a cash slave. Looking back on it, I can remember some times when I was younger in middle school and would rarely pay this cute classmate I liked to sit next to me on the bus. I would pay $5 of my lunch money. I don’t think I did it because I was there was any sexual attraction, I think the main reason I did it was for attention. Years later as time went by and I focused more on academia, I began venturing more onto the internet with my free time. The internet opened my eyes to a plethora of fetishes and kinks. I never knew about so many of these taboo topics until I began exploring more and researching. Some nights I’d stay up until 3am finding so many porn sites. One site leads me to another and to another. I never knew this dark, submissive, and perverted side of me existed. I just wanted to be used, degraded, and humiliated so bad. After a while, the stuff that used to get me off just didn’t do the trick anymore. I had to find something more extreme.

As I began looking for something to not make me feel empty, something to make me feel like this is where I belong, I realized that by looking at porn there wasn’t a real connection. I then ventured into online chat rooms and communities. Using the chat features of those dating sites, I would message those who appeared to be interested in dominating guys and that is when I started to find something that really excited me. I had live interaction with these people now. They would reward me with pictures or videos and I would send humiliating pictures of videos of myself back. I never did anything as extreme as the things I watched in porn movies, but this real interaction added a whole new layer onto my submissive tendencies. Although as time went on, the chat room activity would die down or all of the regulars would join a new site and I was back to feeling lonely.

I would then search the internet for more chat sites, preferentially those related to fetishes / kink / domination and submission. Yet I couldn’t find any (maybe my Google search skills aren’t that great). So, I went back to the original online chat I would frequent and would just keep browsing to see who would pop into the chat. When I least expected it, someone messaged me. The person was very quick and direct to the point. We exchanged what things we were into and then I heard about a new fetish. The person messaging me said they were into financial domination. Inquisitively, I implored as to “what is that?”. While my chat window showed that this dominant and interesting individual was typing, I searched it on Google. What is financial domination?

To my shock, I found so many articles and sources related to this topic. I learned that there are submissive men (much like myself) who give up their hard earned money to pamper, tribute, and worship their dominant counterparts. It seemed ridiculous to me at the time and I figured who would be crazy enough to do such a thing. I have a high paying job and would never consider giving a stranger money over the internet. As I heard the pinging sounds that the person I was chatting with was sending me instant messages, I returned to the chat window. The dominant and powerful person I was talking to seemed so convincing as to what was expected of me. I secretly became turned on by all of this, but in my fear of it becoming a reality, I closed out and left the chat.

-> Part 2 next week!